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  “What happened to him?” I ask softly.

  “He was in the navy. He never came back.”

  “He looks like someone I remember, but I cannot think who it is,” I tell her.

  I keep looking at the photograph but recognition will not come. Vivienne can tell me nothing more and, this time, when I leave, I make no promise to return. I feel flat and disappointed and it is hard to sleep that night.

  When I do, the scene has shifted and I am in a cell with rough stone walls. They are coming for me soon. I am shaking with fright. I cannot be silent for long, but can I hold out long enough for the others to escape? They have left me here for a long time and my courage is ebbing. The hours pass and I doze, worn out by exertion, pain and fear. I wake to the sharp crack of bullets somewhere outside. People are running and voices are shouting. Then silence. I wait, heart pounding. The footsteps begin again, more shouts and keys rattling in my lock. The door is flung open. A crowd of men are in the corridor. Some are injured and are being helped along. They are all making their way towards a doorway that stands open. I can see sunlight and trees.

  I run out looking for him, screaming with delight. Jean-Claude is there. He is so tall I see him easily, pushing through the crowd towards me. I run into his arms, sobbing into the rough tweed of his jacket.

  “What happened?” I ask him, when at last I can speak. Suddenly I realise that this reality is different.

  “The Americans are in the village,” he tells me. “The Germans are leaving.”His voice is full of joy.

  “Thank God!” I cling to him, trembling with shock and relief.

  “I love you,” he whispers into my hair.

  “I love you too.” We kiss.

  There is a blinding flash of light, a roar. Darkness falls and I wake shivering in the dawn. We died. I am sure of it. I get up and go outside, looking down the quiet street. The new houses stand where the police cells used to be.

  “What happened to the old police station?” I scream at Vivienne.

  “The Germans blew up a munitions store further down the road.” She looks almost frightened at my vehemence. “They set a time fuse when they were forced to retreat. Before we could defuse it, the whole thing exploded. The blast demolished the police station and most of the buildings along the street. There were dozens killed.”

  “Neither Annette nor Jean-Claude ran away,” I tell her. “I saw the whole thing last night. They were arrested and were in the police cells, waiting to be interrogated. They had just been released and were standing in front of the police station when the munitions exploded. I saw them die.”

  She sighs and I want to weep.

  “I know now what Annette had to do,” I say softly. “She had to warn Jean-Claude and Emile. If she hadn’t done so, neither of them would have escaped and the bridge would have been strong enough for the tanks to cross. Perhaps the Allies would have been defeated. I had to come here so I could clear Jena-Claude’s memory. I just don’t understand why it happened to me rather than someone else.”

  We drink coffee and talk. She tells me stories. Some of them are funny and some make me cry. It feels as if I am at a funeral, but for people who died before I was born.

  I wander over to her mantelpiece and pick up the photograph she showed me. Annette smiles back at me, as if in a mirror. They are all smiling at me. I look closer at Annette’s brother. His smile looks odd on a man’s face. I have seen that smile before, when I was very young. Then memory comes back and I am looking up into my mother’s eyes.

  “What was Annette’s brother called?” I ask Vivienne, but I already know the answer.

  Copyright © 2013 by Michèle McGrath

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  Award winning author, Michele McGrath, was born on the beautiful Isle of Man in the middle of the Irish Sea. She has lived in California, Liverpool, France and Lancashire before returning home. Living in Paris and Grenoble taught her to make a mean ratatouille and she learned the hula in Hawaii.

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